Herp derp, my Lusi-sprites.
I am a firm believer in the idea that if you truly wish to do something, you can find the time, no matter how busy your life is. I had a professor who managed to be a mother to three teenage children and elementary school principal by day, part-time university professor by night, and part-time student by really late at night. That is a lot to have on your plate, and if she can juggle all of those metaphoric balls, I should be able to juggle my own smaller colleciton of balls. (Teehee I said “balls” a few times there) I have always had to balance work and/or school with my friends, family, and hobbies. I usually do a pretty good job, though lately I have found myself dropping the ball when it comes to gaming.
I still love walking into my local game store, secure in the knowledge that I belong there, that I am not simply eye candy on some guy’s arm, staring around with boredom and bewilderment. I still love gamer culture, and I refuse to go to a party in a private home that lacks video game consoles, and no your mom’s copy of Wii Fit does not count. I have not grown up and become one of those people who are suddenly too cool for gaming. Quite the contrary. I actually find myself forcing myself to play games so that I can continue to wear the gamer girl label, just like I force myself to go to work every morning so that I can continue to wear the gainfully employed and totally not a hobo label.
When we grow up, we leave behind so many hobbies and interests. Most of my toys are long gone. Oh sure, I went through a phase where I wanted to re-purchase some My Little Poniesm, but that was really the exception that proved the rule. Plus, we are not discussing pretty plastic ponies with brushable manes and tails, so stop judging me, damnit. My point is, we all happily left behind our favourite toys, many of us quit sports teams or gave up music or dance lessons. We all “used to be” so many things that fell by the wayside over the years, due primarily to lack of interest. Again, we may claim lack of time, but again we can always find time for the things we truly want to do. So what is it about gaming that has stuck with us, that makes us want to continue to be gamers, when this hobby is as easy to give up as any other, and is easily replaced by any other?
For me it is my friends (not you jerks, though). I love my friends, and my friends are gamers. There is this whole subculture that comes with being a real gamer and not just a Halo broface that I enjoy and identify with, even if I find myself less and less interested in the actual video games themselves, which kinda suck lately, thanks-so-much Squeenix. Herp derp, indeed.